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The Weekend I Finally Put Myself First
It was a Friday evening in Lagos, and I was exhausted. The week had drained every ounce of energy from my body. I had worked late three nights, helped two friends move apartments, covered for a colleague who needed time off, lent money to a relative, and agreed to plan my church group's event. All I wanted was to spend the weekend alone, resting and recharging.
Then my phone rang. My cousin needed me to help her run errands across Lagos on Saturday. In the past, I would have said yes immediately despite my exhaustion. This time, something in me resisted. I took a breath and said the words that felt revolutionary: I cannot help this time. I need to rest.
The silence on the other end felt heavy. Then came the guilt trip. You are always too busy these days. I thought family helps each other. But instead of caving like I always did, I held firm. I love you, but I am not available. My body needs rest. The call ended awkwardly, and guilt washed over me immediately.
But that weekend, as I rested without running around Lagos in traffic, something shifted. I realized I had spent years saying yes to everyone else while my own needs went unmet. I had become so skilled at pleasing others that I had forgotten how to honor myself. That uncomfortable no marked the beginning of my journey out of people-pleasing patterns that had controlled my life for decades.
What People-Pleasing Really Is
People-pleasing is not the same as being kind or helpful. It is a pattern where you consistently prioritize others' needs, wants, and comfort over your own wellbeing. You say yes when you want to say no. You accommodate unreasonable requests at your own expense. You suppress your opinions to avoid conflict. You perform helpfulness to earn approval and acceptance.
At its core, people-pleasing stems from the belief that your value depends on how useful you are to others. You learn to scan others for disapproval, to anticipate their needs before your own, and to sacrifice yourself to maintain harmony. This pattern feels like kindness but functions as self-abandonment. Genuine kindness comes from choice and abundance. People-pleasing comes from fear and obligation.
In Nigerian society where communal values emphasize selflessness and putting others first, distinguishing between healthy generosity and people-pleasing becomes especially difficult. The line blurs between honoring cultural values of helpfulness and losing yourself in the process. However, true communal care sustains everyone, including you. People-pleasing depletes you while others take without reciprocating.
Why We Become People Pleasers
People-pleasing patterns typically develop in childhood, often in response to environments where love felt conditional on good behavior, where expressing needs led to punishment or withdrawal of affection, or where you had to earn your place through usefulness.
Maybe you grew up with a parent whose moods controlled the household, and you learned to keep them happy to maintain peace. Perhaps you were praised for being the helpful one, the responsible child, the one who never caused problems. Or maybe your family faced hardship, and being useful felt like the only way to justify your existence and ease their burden.
These early experiences wire your brain to associate approval with safety. You develop hypervigilance for others' emotions, constantly scanning for signs of disapproval. You learn that your needs matter less than keeping others comfortable. Over time, this becomes your default mode, operating even in relationships where such behavior is unnecessary.
Cultural factors reinforce these patterns in Nigerian contexts. Many of us were raised with messages that children should be seen and not heard, that questioning elders is disrespect, that family obligations come before personal comfort, or that good people never say no to those in need. These cultural values have merit but become harmful when they erase your right to have needs and limits.
The Hidden Cost of Constant Yes
People-pleasing extracts a devastating toll, though the cost accumulates gradually enough that you might not notice until you are completely depleted. Every yes to someone else is a no to yourself. Every time you suppress your needs, you teach your brain that your needs do not matter.
The costs manifest across your life. You experience chronic exhaustion and burnout from overextending yourself constantly. You develop resentment toward people you help, even though you agreed to help them. You lose touch with your own preferences, opinions, and desires because you spend so much energy managing others' feelings. You attract relationships with users and takers who exploit your inability to set boundaries.
Your mental health deteriorates under the weight of constant performance. Anxiety spikes as you try to anticipate everyone's needs and avoid disappointing anyone. Depression settles in as you realize you have built a life around pleasing others rather than pursuing your own goals. You feel trapped but believe you have no choice because saying no feels impossible.
Ironically, people-pleasing damages the very relationships it attempts to preserve. You cannot build genuine connection from a place of inauthenticity. When people only know the accommodating version of you, they do not know the real you. When you say yes to everything, your yes loses meaning. When you never disagree, people cannot trust that your agreement is honest.
Signs You Are a People Pleaser
Recognizing people-pleasing patterns is the first step toward change. You might be a people pleaser if you struggle to say no even to unreasonable requests, feel responsible for others' emotions and happiness, apologize excessively even when you did nothing wrong, or agree with others to avoid conflict even when you disagree.
Other signs include feeling guilty when prioritizing your own needs, going out of your way to avoid disappointing anyone, feeling anxious about how others perceive you, struggling to ask for help or support, taking on more than you can handle, or feeling resentful after helping people because you agreed out of obligation rather than genuine desire.
You might also notice that you do not know your own preferences because you have spent so much time adapting to others. When someone asks what you want, you default to what they want. You have become so skilled at reading others that you lost the ability to read yourself.
Breaking the Pattern Step by Step
Overcoming people-pleasing requires patient, consistent work. You are rewiring patterns that have operated for years or decades. Change happens gradually through repeated small actions that feel uncomfortable at first.
Start With Awareness
Notice when you say yes but want to say no. Pay attention to the physical sensations in your body when someone makes a request. Does your stomach tighten? Does your chest feel heavy? Your body often knows the truth before your mind catches up. Track patterns in your relationships. Who consistently takes while giving little back? Which situations trigger your people-pleasing most intensely?
Practice Saying No to Small Things
Do not start by saying no to your demanding mother or your boss. Begin with lower-stakes situations. Decline when a shop attendant asks if you need help. Say no when someone offers you food you do not want. Choose the movie you want to watch instead of deferring to others. These small nos build your tolerance for the discomfort that comes with prioritizing yourself.
Delay Your Yes
When someone asks for something, resist the urge to answer immediately. Say let me think about it and get back to you. This pause gives you space to check whether you genuinely want to help or are responding from people-pleasing patterns. It also prevents the rushed yes that you later regret.
Challenge Your Thoughts
People-pleasers carry distorted beliefs that fuel the pattern. Challenge these thoughts when they arise. If I say no, they will hate me becomes they might be disappointed, but that does not mean they hate me. I have to help or I am selfish becomes I can be caring and still have limits. My needs do not matter as much becomes my needs matter just as much as anyone else's.
Learning to Say No Without Guilt
The word no is a complete sentence, but for recovering people pleasers, simple scripts help. You do not owe lengthy explanations for your boundaries. Over-explaining signals that your no is negotiable if someone argues with your reasons convincingly enough.
Try these phrases: I cannot help with that. That does not work for me. I am not available. I need to focus on my own priorities right now. I appreciate you thinking of me, but I cannot. These statements are clear, firm, and complete without apology or justification.
Expect guilt when you start saying no, especially in Nigerian contexts where refusal can be seen as selfishness or disrespect. This guilt is not evidence you are doing something wrong. It is your conditioning protesting change. Guilt is the withdrawal symptom of breaking your approval addiction. Feel it, acknowledge it, but do not let it control your choices.
Also prepare for pushback. People who benefit from your people-pleasing will not celebrate your boundaries. They will guilt-trip, manipulate, call you selfish, or claim you have changed. These reactions reveal their character, not yours. People who genuinely care about you will respect your boundaries even if initially disappointed. Those who only valued your usefulness will reveal themselves through their hostile reactions to your no.
Building Worth Beyond Approval
The deepest work in overcoming people-pleasing involves rebuilding your sense of worth independent of others' approval. You must learn that your value is inherent, not earned through constant helpfulness. You matter because you exist, not because you are useful.
This requires developing internal validation rather than seeking external validation. Instead of scanning others for approval, check in with yourself. Am I honoring my values? Am I treating myself with respect? Am I making choices aligned with my wellbeing? Your own assessment becomes more important than anyone else's opinion.
Practice self-compassion when you slip back into people-pleasing patterns. Recovery is not linear. You will have moments where old patterns resurface, where you say yes when you meant to say no, where guilt overwhelms your boundaries. Treat these moments as learning opportunities rather than failures. Speak to yourself the way you would speak to a friend learning a difficult new skill.
Invest time in discovering who you are beyond the helpful role. What do you enjoy? What are your opinions? What makes you feel alive? You cannot prioritize yourself if you do not know yourself. Spend time alone exploring your preferences without adapting to anyone else's expectations.
Build relationships with people who value the authentic you, not just the accommodating version. Surround yourself with those who encourage your growth, respect your boundaries, and reciprocate your care. Let go of relationships that only exist because of your people-pleasing. If someone only stays in your life because you never say no, that relationship was never genuine.
Key Takeaways
- People-pleasing is self-abandonment, not kindness – True generosity comes from choice and abundance. People-pleasing comes from fear and the belief that your value depends on constant helpfulness.
- Childhood conditioning creates people-pleasing patterns – Most people pleasers learned early that love was conditional on good behavior, that their needs did not matter, or that being useful was the only way to justify their existence.
- Every yes to others is a no to yourself – Constant accommodation depletes you, breeds resentment, damages your mental health, and prevents authentic relationships from forming.
- You cannot build genuine connection from inauthenticity – When people only know the accommodating version of you, they do not know the real you. Healthy relationships require honest communication about your limits.
- Start small with your nos – Practice declining low-stakes requests before tackling major boundary violations. Small wins build tolerance for the discomfort of prioritizing yourself.
- Guilt is a symptom of change, not evidence of wrongdoing – When you start saying no, guilt will arise. This is your conditioning protesting change, not proof that you are being selfish.
- No is a complete sentence – You do not owe lengthy explanations for your boundaries. Over-explaining signals that your no is negotiable if someone argues convincingly enough.
- Expect pushback when you establish boundaries – People who benefited from your people-pleasing will resist your boundaries. Their hostile reactions reveal their character, not the validity of your limits.
- Your value is inherent, not earned – You matter because you exist, not because you are useful. Building worth independent of others' approval is essential for lasting recovery.
- Recovery requires developing internal validation – Instead of scanning others for approval, check in with yourself. Your assessment of whether you are honoring your values matters more than external opinions.
Frequently Asked Questions
Why do I feel guilty when I say no to people?
Guilt from saying no usually stems from childhood conditioning where your value was tied to helpfulness, fear of rejection or disappointing others, cultural expectations about selflessness, or believing your needs matter less than others' wants. This guilt is learned behavior, not a moral compass. Saying no to unreasonable requests is healthy, not selfish. The guilt you feel is your conditioning protesting change, similar to withdrawal symptoms when breaking any ingrained habit.
How do I stop being a people pleaser?
Start by recognizing your patterns and triggers, practice saying no to small requests first, build self-worth independent of others' approval, establish clear boundaries and enforce them consistently, challenge thoughts that your value depends on constant helpfulness, and develop tolerance for others' disappointment. Recovery is gradual; be patient with yourself. Track your progress in a journal, celebrate small wins, and work with a therapist if patterns feel too entrenched to break alone.
Can people-pleasing damage relationships?
Yes, people-pleasing creates inauthentic relationships built on performance rather than genuine connection. It leads to resentment when your needs are ignored, attracts users who exploit your inability to say no, prevents true intimacy because people do not know the real you, and causes burnout that makes you unavailable even when you want to help. Authentic relationships require honest communication about your limits. People who truly care about you will adjust to your boundaries because they value your wellbeing, not just your usefulness.
Is it selfish to prioritize my own needs?
No, prioritizing your needs is self-care, not selfishness. Selfishness is taking without regard for others; self-care ensures you can give from abundance rather than depletion. You cannot pour from an empty cup. Taking care of yourself allows you to genuinely help others when you choose to, rather than helping from obligation and resentment. Your needs matter as much as anyone else's. Healthy relationships and communities require all members to care for themselves so they can sustainably care for each other.
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